Friday, February 3, 2012

Things I Ponder - Getting Older

Last Tuesday was my birthday and I started to think about age related things, and how getting older affects us all. Everyone has their own way of celebrating or "dealing with" their birthdays, (depending on how old they are turning) but most of all, we all notice the emotional and mental changes we experience as we get older. There's this internal drive or push to do certain things and be accomplished in different areas that clicks in as we reach certain milestones in our years.

Sometimes I start to wonder if we're restricted or enhanced by being so obsessed with age and each anniversary that we reach (whether we like it or not). Everything seems to be so date conscious; we base so many decisions and pass judgement on age. Another question would be is if these decisions and judgement are justified? Are we qualified to pass a judgement on someone and decide if they are worthy or unworthy of something simply based on how old they are?

We have these goals that almost seem like limitations: go to college and get a degree, get a fantastic, well-paying job by this age, fall in love by that age, be married by this age, have kids by that age, etc. The list seems endless. We have to accomplish all these certain things at these certain times and people judge us based on whether or not we have reached these goals at the right time.

If we reach our goals too soon, we can be judged for that too. One who has done this or that at an age perceived as "too young" is said to have "grown up too fast" or even been corrupted. Many laws are also based on age, such as when one can drive, live on their own, serve their country, buy and smoke cigarettes, buy and consume alcohol, among many others.

It came down to this intriguing question for me:

Would we be better off without these age limits and goals; would we get along better without them or would we fail miserably?

More on this later. Feel free to comment...I'd love to know what others think about this and how you would answer the question!

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

2

Atypical behavior
Expecting a savior
Easily disappointed
Quickly disjointed

Rapid replies
Simple demise
Shallow breathing
Forever grieving

Intensely ashamed
Incorrectly blamed
Sorrowful glances
Empty romances

Jagged edges
Broken ledges
Foreign tongues
Empty lungs



Monday, January 9, 2012

Freezing

So fake, so cold
How bleak, how bold

Foreign languages we spoke
All the promises you broke

Every lie recited
And each cell ignited

Your lingering gaze
The always burning blaze

My never ending trek
To avoid an inevitable wreck

So oblivious; eyes closed
How hilarious; so composed

Monday, January 2, 2012

Indescribable

On the outside
There's a smile
Nothing to hide
At least for a while

It's easy to act nonchalant
Sure you're just fine
What is it we truly want
Alone, waiting for things to align

Because now the truth is clear
We're all searching for something real
Someone to protect us from what we fear
A place we don't have to pretend not to feel

Casually we breathe
Searching far and wide
Inside we secretly seethe
Wishing we had never lied

While it's me you haunt
I'm listening to the perfect cadence
More than simply what I want
Perfectly imperfect and shameless

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Free

I could walk for hours just because
And sometimes the freeway off ramp
Appeals to me for some midnight walking
But something tells me that the late-night patrol officers
Would possibly consider that a suicide attempt
"But officers," I'd say, "I'm a happy girl"
Got a whole lot going for me
A big world to see
My whole life ahead of me"
"Dear girl," they'd say, "it's never the sad ones."
And we'd share this sad moment together
Not quite sure of what else there was to say
Because I knew they were right
Truth is, I'd never even consider that idea
It was just that walking against traffic was always this taboo
And in the moment, in the moonlit midnight of my neighborhood
I just wanted to see what it felt like to be free

Monday, December 5, 2011

Flames

Why don't I miss you
When you're so far away
The lies come out so fluently
I'm barely keeping up

I swear I'm not pretending
Shivering as you linger
Fingertips gliding
My world keeps on sliding

Inside out, upside down
How you manage to get me all turned around
Sweaty collisions
Careful incisions

Definitely nothing to do with booze
I promise this wasn't a ruse
And my bed is this constant reminder
As if this all wasn't hard enough

Pretending I don't give a fuck
Nothing ever seemed so difficult as this
Acting like nothing ever mattered
And you're certainly not shattered

Cliche statements resounding
This is apparently what I'm supposed to do
But I know that booze and boys
Won't get you out of my mind

Friday, December 2, 2011

Tick Tock

A stolen kiss
Rippling
Lips upturned
Giggling
My heart unburdened

And as I breathe
The clock stops
My heart throbs
Unbelievably romantic
All of these go*damn semantics

This fire inside consumes me
I have no time for this
Any methods of escape
I promise this I won't regret
Despite the unacceptable behavior

Promise you won't console me
I'd rather breathe on my own
Conspicuously bright
I swear I'll be alright
Knowing how to get back up

Prefer to see it all
Than to pretend I'm blind
I'd rather communicate
Without any words
Than to constantly just talk

The hell with average
I'd like to see it all
Every part of life
Intriguing and deceiving
I promise I'll survive