Concerns

I’m drowning in a pool of nothing
Forcing myself to toughen up
This plan isn’t working out like I’d hoped
It didn’t happen like you said it would
With your fake smiles and consoling words
I didn’t need sympathy, I needed reality
Why can’t people be honest anymore?
It’s like it seems easier to keep up with your lies
Than to just tell the truth 
And so here I am I’m not heartbroken 
I know you want me to feel like 
I’ve given up something real 
But the truth is all you are is a disappointment, a step I’m glad to be done with 
A bitter taste in my mouth 
Spit that stains the concrete 
Sighs of relief when I can finally leave this wretched place 
And feel empty again